Hello my beloved friends! I know it's been awhile since I've chatted with you; truth be told, it's been another tough year for me and I've been spending the past couple of months just trying to keep it together.
I really don't even know where to begin except to say that I have had enough sorrow these past few years to last me forever! It seems like whenever life starts to look up for me, something always has to push me down?
As you probably have gathered in my previous blogs, things didn't really work out at the Post Office. I loved the environment and the people, it just wasn't something that I wanted to spend the rest of my life doing. All my life, I have known with conviction that my dedication is working with children, and if I were to stay at the Post Office, I know my dreams would have never of been realized, that and the job was just way out of my league! I mean, you have to be at your top physical shape, otherwise that workload is BRUTAL! After leaving the Post Office, my husband and I tried our hand at starting our own business doing what we did before which was medical billing and my husband contracted work against my wishes and his better judgement, with his sisters boyfriend. One of the individuals might I add that made my life a living hell at that horrible job that took so much away from me! Reluctantly, I agreed to work with him and after a couple of months, my husbands sister who doesn't like me very much decided she didn't want to be within the same proximity as me and convinced her boyfriend to end our contract, so again we were both out of work.
Frustrated, I decided I needed a break from the rat race and decided my husband need to take the reigns because I just didn't have it in me anymore.
My husband did find work and things looked like they were finally starting to get better, but then they decided to let him go and we were left scrambling for some solid ground again. At this point, I decided I needed to suck it up and get back out there, but all the jobs I wanted or felt like I qualified for demanded at least a B.A. which is why I decided to go back to school and finally finish.
But then I got sick and had to slow my roll way back, which is where I am at right now. I ended up in the hospital which is another blog, but it made me stop in my tracks and really think about my life and what was important and because of it, I had to give up a lot of things, such as volunteering so much. It saddened me, but I stepped down as Children's Ministry Coordinator while I figure out what's going to happen to me next? I stopped planning so many events, but most importantly I stopped worrying about the million and one things that are totally out of my control.
To be honest I think this is all the Lord's doing and I thank Him and give Him all the glory because it says in the bible:
"And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you." 1 Peter 5:10 ESV
and also, "Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12 ESV
I know that a lot of my blogs thus far have been pretty depressing and sad, but looking back and reading them, I can see more clearly now that the Lord is truly working in my life and I just praise Him at His mighty work because I know that He has a wonderful plan for me!...Until next time my beloved.
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Tuesday, December 2, 2014
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
What to write?
Hello my wonderful friends around the world, welcome back to "What the hell happened to Russhelle?" Hope everyone is doing fine and are nice and cozy and ready to read my crazy random blog?
My mind has been taken in a loop, I am so excited, I have a group interview this Thursday so I have been spending the last couple of days trying to prepare for it. But really how does one ever fully prepare for an interview? Now a days they make you jump through hoops and take you on a roller coaster ride before they even consider you for the job (can I hear an amen)? Back in the day, you go in and state you want to work, the employer says okay you want to work, what can you do? You tell them, they so okay, badda bing, badda boom, you got a new job. Today, you have to take an online assessment, then go to a special facility to take another assessment, then go to a group interview, where you have to stand out in the survival of the fittest and once you pass all that..THEN they will see you for the interview on deciding whether you should be hired or not, but not even then do you have the job, because then you get put on probation, where they give you a bunch of other hoops to jump through and test to pass and after a year of jumping through hoops and being tested, then they say "okay, you got the job." Siiiiggggghhhh, then the government wonders why the unemployment rate is so high?
Can you tell I'm a little anxious and freaking out? OK, let me take a breath.......ok, sorry about my ranting, I just really want this job and am getting restless for the group interview. In the meantime, my husband and nephew keep telling me I should be a writer. I really don't know why? I asked them about it and they said that I am very good at captivating and sucking people into what I am writing? SAAAAYYYYYY WHHHHAAAAAATT? I really don't know how my 10 year old godson can see this, if he never read any of my blogs? Although I did write him a story once and had him read it for his school reading credit. Oh gosh what was it about? I think I titled it "The hungry butt wars," or something in that nature and it was about three siblings named Webster, I think Nina and Paco? Oh gosh it was so long ago that I wrote it, but I think the just of the story was basically the Hunger Games storyline, except that they were fighting for the last twinkie. Anyhow, ever since I wrote him that story, he thinks that I should write children's books now. He's such a funny character, my godson, he is only 9 going on 10, but he has the soul of a 30 year old!
I mean don't get me wrong, I appreciate the support and encouragement they are giving me, but come on; really? Me write? I have a hard enough time figuring what to talk about during our therapeutic blog sessions that I have with all of you psychiatrist out there..Yup the secret is out, that is how I view all of you beloved readers, sitting there in your sophisticated Doctor chairs, with a notepad and pen suedo listening, while I rant and rave about my life. All the while, your drawing hangman pictures instead of taking notes. It's okay though, I still enjoy the company nevertheless!
Oh gee, there's the husband in the background yelling for me to get going so that we can run errands around town. Just when I was about to get to all the juicy stuff going on in my life!...Until next time
My mind has been taken in a loop, I am so excited, I have a group interview this Thursday so I have been spending the last couple of days trying to prepare for it. But really how does one ever fully prepare for an interview? Now a days they make you jump through hoops and take you on a roller coaster ride before they even consider you for the job (can I hear an amen)? Back in the day, you go in and state you want to work, the employer says okay you want to work, what can you do? You tell them, they so okay, badda bing, badda boom, you got a new job. Today, you have to take an online assessment, then go to a special facility to take another assessment, then go to a group interview, where you have to stand out in the survival of the fittest and once you pass all that..THEN they will see you for the interview on deciding whether you should be hired or not, but not even then do you have the job, because then you get put on probation, where they give you a bunch of other hoops to jump through and test to pass and after a year of jumping through hoops and being tested, then they say "okay, you got the job." Siiiiggggghhhh, then the government wonders why the unemployment rate is so high?
Can you tell I'm a little anxious and freaking out? OK, let me take a breath.......ok, sorry about my ranting, I just really want this job and am getting restless for the group interview. In the meantime, my husband and nephew keep telling me I should be a writer. I really don't know why? I asked them about it and they said that I am very good at captivating and sucking people into what I am writing? SAAAAYYYYYY WHHHHAAAAAATT? I really don't know how my 10 year old godson can see this, if he never read any of my blogs? Although I did write him a story once and had him read it for his school reading credit. Oh gosh what was it about? I think I titled it "The hungry butt wars," or something in that nature and it was about three siblings named Webster, I think Nina and Paco? Oh gosh it was so long ago that I wrote it, but I think the just of the story was basically the Hunger Games storyline, except that they were fighting for the last twinkie. Anyhow, ever since I wrote him that story, he thinks that I should write children's books now. He's such a funny character, my godson, he is only 9 going on 10, but he has the soul of a 30 year old!
I mean don't get me wrong, I appreciate the support and encouragement they are giving me, but come on; really? Me write? I have a hard enough time figuring what to talk about during our therapeutic blog sessions that I have with all of you psychiatrist out there..Yup the secret is out, that is how I view all of you beloved readers, sitting there in your sophisticated Doctor chairs, with a notepad and pen suedo listening, while I rant and rave about my life. All the while, your drawing hangman pictures instead of taking notes. It's okay though, I still enjoy the company nevertheless!
Oh gee, there's the husband in the background yelling for me to get going so that we can run errands around town. Just when I was about to get to all the juicy stuff going on in my life!...Until next time
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