Hallo!!! Guten tag! Wie ghets? Hope all is well with all of you friends around the world? I know it's been awhile since we last have spoken but oh how the time flies!! So many wonderful things have been going on, I don't know where to begin?!
To start off I got a job!!!! Yay! FINALLY, so now you guys can stop hearing about how I have no j-o-b..LOL! It's with the post office and I couldn't be happier, because I pretty much am going to get paid to work out! I start training on March 4th and I just hope that I, strong enough to keep up, because they informed us that if we fail the training, we are going to be automatically fired (yikes)!!!! Nevertheless, I'm counting down the days and after a year of being out of the game, I can't wait to jump back in!
Being that I'm going back to work, unfortunately I'm not going to be able to provide childcare for my nephew anymore :( my husband is taking over and I just hope he doesn't slack off on all the work I've been doing with him, such as lessons, activities, exercise, etc. I have every faith in him though ( but I left him a survival guide just incase).
Since I've been getting ready to go back to work (I.e. making notes for my husband everywhere and trying to get used to going to bed and waking up early) I have also been going into over drive trying to do as many things with my husband and nephew, since I pretty much will be working six days a week and won't have another vacation anytime soon.
We went to Disneys California Adventure last week and enjoyed a nice relaxing day walking around the park and since today was such a beautiful warm day, I decided to take everyone to the petting zoo! I actually seen a sign for it a couple of years ago and always wanted to go, but never had time. And then when I lost my job ( ok hopefully this will be the last time, that sentence will ever be said..heehee) anyway, I didn't have the money, but since I'm starting my new job next week ( yay) I'm considering this my vacation and to be on the safe side, we cashed in all of our recyclables we've been saving for a special occasion and off we went!
We've never been there before so we didn't really know how to get there and our GPS seemed as though it was sending us to the outskirts of town?
We were driving a little slower than usual trying to find the right street to turn down, when all of a sudden a car started honking at us from behind? My husband does this thing whenever this happens, which is that he starts to drive even SLOWER to piss off the drivers more, then when they pass us and start flipping us off, he just smiles and waves at them. So today was just one of those occasions and when the car pulled next to us and expectedly flipped us off, etc. my husband smiled and waved and said Bye! And from the back seat, I heard a small bye!! And when I turned around, our nephew was copying my husband and waving out the window....I started laughing at this precious moment and told my husband, " at least you're being a good example this time!" Eventually, we found our destination and it was actually part of this park and it was like and enchanted place that I, nor my nephew wanted to leave! It was so awesome! They had every animal, from an Emu all the way to a Zebra! And then they had pony rides, train rides, merry go round, gem stone find area and a fishing area. We had a grand old time and all we spent for the three of us and all the activities was $22; that sounds like my budget!
After our fun adventure, we came back home and enjoyed the memories we made....Until next time my beloved.....
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Woman scorned
Hello my friends, hope all is well? Just wanted to talk it out and thought I might drop in for a chat?!
I'm feeling a little down today. Maybe it's because the day is cold and gloomy so my mood decided to match it or maybe it's because there's some discord in my life and it's making me feel down?
I hate discord! I especially hate being the scapegoat for everyone's problems when all I've ever done was be there and support them. I really don't understand it to be honest with you? I mean I thought being helpful and kind and supportive were things that would make people happy and show how much I care and love them, but has been my unfortunate experience that it causes the exact opposite effect?! Apparently, if I'm helpful, I'm being too involved in there lives and is being annoying? If I'm kind, that apparently gives them the license to think they can take advantage and walk all over me and if I'm being supportive, apparently, I'm being some kind of judge mental critical B****! I mean is it me? I didn't think I was doing anything wrong? All I would do is be there when they called or needed me, be an ear or shoulder to cry on when they needed to talk and try to give Godly advice when they were facing troubling situations, but apparently by my doing that, I have become the enemy. I have become the reason why their lives are so miserable and I am the one that needs to apparently stay away and out of everything??!!
Truth be told, I'm perfectly fine with that, like I said, I HATE discord and really don't want it in my life. So, if they choose to cut themselves out of my life because of their own issues, not mine, I'm fine with that, but don't come running back and be hurt when I'm not there waiting anymore.
Here's another truth, I probably would still be there, because I don't have the heart to turn from someone in need, but if I feel I've been hurt enough times, don't get mad when I decide to treat you the same way you so cold heartedly treated me first....Until next time my beloved
I'm feeling a little down today. Maybe it's because the day is cold and gloomy so my mood decided to match it or maybe it's because there's some discord in my life and it's making me feel down?
I hate discord! I especially hate being the scapegoat for everyone's problems when all I've ever done was be there and support them. I really don't understand it to be honest with you? I mean I thought being helpful and kind and supportive were things that would make people happy and show how much I care and love them, but has been my unfortunate experience that it causes the exact opposite effect?! Apparently, if I'm helpful, I'm being too involved in there lives and is being annoying? If I'm kind, that apparently gives them the license to think they can take advantage and walk all over me and if I'm being supportive, apparently, I'm being some kind of judge mental critical B****! I mean is it me? I didn't think I was doing anything wrong? All I would do is be there when they called or needed me, be an ear or shoulder to cry on when they needed to talk and try to give Godly advice when they were facing troubling situations, but apparently by my doing that, I have become the enemy. I have become the reason why their lives are so miserable and I am the one that needs to apparently stay away and out of everything??!!
Truth be told, I'm perfectly fine with that, like I said, I HATE discord and really don't want it in my life. So, if they choose to cut themselves out of my life because of their own issues, not mine, I'm fine with that, but don't come running back and be hurt when I'm not there waiting anymore.
Here's another truth, I probably would still be there, because I don't have the heart to turn from someone in need, but if I feel I've been hurt enough times, don't get mad when I decide to treat you the same way you so cold heartedly treated me first....Until next time my beloved
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Lights, Camera, ACTION!!!!
It was a mildly hot February day, unusual hot for this time a year..The year was 2013, the place was Hollywood....Well actually it was close to Hollywood, but not really, but anyway I went to church with my mom and enjoyed the fine California air and upon returning home, we noticed cones semi-blocking off the streets of our neighborhood. "Oh, so I guess they started filming," I told my mom unsurprised.
My cousin, who I believe will be a very successful Director one day, recently contacted me and asked if he could use my house to shoot some scenes in his movie. Being the Thespian that I am with a great appreciation for the arts myself, without hesitation, I agreed and today was the day that they began filming.
My mom drove to church so she parked at her house and I walked down or more like trotted down to my apartment, trying my best not to get in that way of artistic progress and as I get to the doorway of my home, I notice two females and a male sitting on my couch. The male was tall, with shoulder length black wavy hair, wearing a robe and sporting a beard. I looked at them and they looked up at me as I entered the home and I thought to myself, "Is this a movie or a porno?" Oh my gosh, what did I get home into?!!" Just kidding, my cousin explained the storyline to me and my home was suppose to be the married characters home. I walked in and introduced myself and they seemed like typical "Hollywood peeps," so I put my purse down and searched for my husband who was suppose to be holding up the front while I was out. I found him back at my moms house, giving my little bro a haircut and we went back to the apartment to hide out in our room, while chaos took place everywhere else. Unfortunately, my husband decided to ditch me to go "buy food," and alas, I am left here alone being a stranger in my own home, which is why I am here now writing to you my beloved, at least you guys can keep me company and make me look like I'm not a total looser with nothing better to do! Again I kid!
I'm actually pretty use to all this craziness, because believe it or not, yours truly almost became the next "Who's that girl again?" but at the last minute I decided to take another route. Acting and anything that has to do with art actually runs in my blood; all the way down to my ancestors. Can you believe that my family was a traveling acting company that traveled all over the world, performing theatre and shows and was even Poncho Villa's own private entertaining group. Legend has it, that when my great aunt was born, Poncho Villa and his posse were downstairs at a bar, when my great, grandfather ran down and announced the birth of his daughter and Poncho Villa and his gang were so excited, they started shooting their guns up into the air. (So Hollywood movies right, but it's true), then when the war broke out, Poncho Villa personally guided my family across the border into New Mexico, which is how we ended up in the United States. So you can see how it is no surprise that a lot of my family is actually in the industry.
I myself, once upon a time was an aspiring actress and from what I was told, I had a very promising future, and I did get a lot of call backs and things like that, but truth be told, when I was in it, all I felt was pressure. Pressure to look a certain way, speak a certain way and act a certain way and all the ways I was suppose to be...well it just wasn't me. So after awhile, I thought about it and even though my manager at the time was strictly against it, I decided to walk away and have a normal life. One where I wasn't scrutinized for everything I said and did and free to fall in love, go wild and just be me! Do I wonder what might of been? Truthfully, not really, all I have to do is open up a magazine and see for myself and I know I made the right decision. Plus, I would always joke with my husband and tell him that if I never walked away, I would have never of met him and I wouldn't have the wonderful life that I have now. So by now, you know the gist of my life, you tell me? Should I have continued with acting or did I make the right decision? I think so......Until next time.....
My cousin, who I believe will be a very successful Director one day, recently contacted me and asked if he could use my house to shoot some scenes in his movie. Being the Thespian that I am with a great appreciation for the arts myself, without hesitation, I agreed and today was the day that they began filming.
My mom drove to church so she parked at her house and I walked down or more like trotted down to my apartment, trying my best not to get in that way of artistic progress and as I get to the doorway of my home, I notice two females and a male sitting on my couch. The male was tall, with shoulder length black wavy hair, wearing a robe and sporting a beard. I looked at them and they looked up at me as I entered the home and I thought to myself, "Is this a movie or a porno?" Oh my gosh, what did I get home into?!!" Just kidding, my cousin explained the storyline to me and my home was suppose to be the married characters home. I walked in and introduced myself and they seemed like typical "Hollywood peeps," so I put my purse down and searched for my husband who was suppose to be holding up the front while I was out. I found him back at my moms house, giving my little bro a haircut and we went back to the apartment to hide out in our room, while chaos took place everywhere else. Unfortunately, my husband decided to ditch me to go "buy food," and alas, I am left here alone being a stranger in my own home, which is why I am here now writing to you my beloved, at least you guys can keep me company and make me look like I'm not a total looser with nothing better to do! Again I kid!
I'm actually pretty use to all this craziness, because believe it or not, yours truly almost became the next "Who's that girl again?" but at the last minute I decided to take another route. Acting and anything that has to do with art actually runs in my blood; all the way down to my ancestors. Can you believe that my family was a traveling acting company that traveled all over the world, performing theatre and shows and was even Poncho Villa's own private entertaining group. Legend has it, that when my great aunt was born, Poncho Villa and his posse were downstairs at a bar, when my great, grandfather ran down and announced the birth of his daughter and Poncho Villa and his gang were so excited, they started shooting their guns up into the air. (So Hollywood movies right, but it's true), then when the war broke out, Poncho Villa personally guided my family across the border into New Mexico, which is how we ended up in the United States. So you can see how it is no surprise that a lot of my family is actually in the industry.
I myself, once upon a time was an aspiring actress and from what I was told, I had a very promising future, and I did get a lot of call backs and things like that, but truth be told, when I was in it, all I felt was pressure. Pressure to look a certain way, speak a certain way and act a certain way and all the ways I was suppose to be...well it just wasn't me. So after awhile, I thought about it and even though my manager at the time was strictly against it, I decided to walk away and have a normal life. One where I wasn't scrutinized for everything I said and did and free to fall in love, go wild and just be me! Do I wonder what might of been? Truthfully, not really, all I have to do is open up a magazine and see for myself and I know I made the right decision. Plus, I would always joke with my husband and tell him that if I never walked away, I would have never of met him and I wouldn't have the wonderful life that I have now. So by now, you know the gist of my life, you tell me? Should I have continued with acting or did I make the right decision? I think so......Until next time.....
My funny Valentine
Hallo, vie ghets? Shalom and all that great stuff! How was everyone's Valentines day? I know I'm a little late with this entry, but I got a little caught up in things, so I'm a little behind, please bear with me.
Valentines Day is suppose to be about love right? The day where your loved ones go out and do this grand gesture to show you how much they care about you so on and so forth. Well my day wasn't really about all that Hallmark Mumbo jumbo, but it was special just the same.
You see for those of you just turning in, I have been jobless for the past year and my faith and trust in The Lord has truly been tested and tried. In this past year, I had to face a lot of my demons and battle myself to find myself again. After a year of searching for a job and waiting and putting my faith in God and not myself, I finally got a positive response back from a job that I applied for with the post office. I didn't know if I would get it or not, but I sent up a quick prayer for The Lord to guide me and I applied. After I applied, I took an assessment test, and after that assessment test, I received an invite to go and take another assessment. I felt confident and again put my trust in The Lord and after the second assessment, I was told to take a drug test, after the drug test a background check was requested and after that, I FINALLY received an invitation for a group interview and when I received the letter I looked at the date it fell on and guess what day that was??!!! February 14th!! I was like what are the odds, right on Valentines day?! So as the day approached I became very nervous, because I have the habit of psyching myself out and all these thoughts ran through my mind, like " what if I'm not good enough?" What if they take one look at me and laugh?!" I forced those negative thoughts out of my head and instead turned to my support group which is made up of friends and family and asked that everyone pray for me.
The night before, I was so stressed, I made myself sick so I went to bed early. Fortunately for that, I was able to rise and shine bright and early the next day ready to take on the interview. My husband cooked me a hearty breakfast because the last group interview had me stuck there all day with no food or breaks so I got sick afterwards. Plus my husband claims it was for Valentines Day. So I got ready, ate breakfast and off we went. I got there an hour early, but decided to go in early to hopefully get it over with, but it being a group interview, I ended up standing outside for an hour until the rest of the group showed up. I didn't mind though, because I ended up making friends and talking while I waited and it seemed to take my mind off the stress of the interview. Right before we finally went inside, I heard crows flying above me in the sky and I looked up. As I looked up I said to The Lord, " Lord, look at these birds, they do not worry about what they will eat or who will feed them, yet you provide for them, please Lord provide this job for me today." As I said it, I took a deep breath and was calm, I walked in there just as me, honest and friendly as only I can be. I filled out my paperwork and a question became a great concern which was " were you ever fired or resigned from a job after being notified that you would be fired?" I of course said no, but the proctor warned us that if we lie, we can and will be terminated! So of course I became freaked out, because as for all of you that have been following me know, my last long term position had a very complicated ending?! So again, I put my trust in The Lord and wrote as honest as I could, the detailed, complicated past I had with my employer.
When it came down to interview one on one, the first question was, so what happened with your last employer? I gave it to God, explained what happened and she just thanked me for explaining it and offered me the job!!! This truly had to be of God, because it is all happening so fast! I am not officially hired though, I still have to pass my medical assessment next week and if I clear that, then they will give me a start date.
I walked out of that building not feeling ecstatic or joyous even though I was, I felt more at peace and calm, even now as I'm typing, I know I should be more excited, but I just feel completely at ease with the whole situation because I know God is in control. After the interview, we couldn't really do anything because we still had our nephew so we went home and hung out until it was time to drop him off at home. Then we went out to eat, but kind of rushed through it because it was well after 9p.m. And the restaurant was closed. After our rushed dinner, we were feeling so blessed about the job, we decided to bless someone else and went and bought candy and a bottle of wine and took it to our dearly beloved sister, then we came home because we have both become so old and my husband was crying he had aches and pains and my stomach hurt because I ate too fast. So once we got home, we both got ready for bed and then that's when things got really interesting.......we both jumped into bed and went to sleep!!!
Valentines Day is suppose to be about love right? The day where your loved ones go out and do this grand gesture to show you how much they care about you so on and so forth. Well my day wasn't really about all that Hallmark Mumbo jumbo, but it was special just the same.
You see for those of you just turning in, I have been jobless for the past year and my faith and trust in The Lord has truly been tested and tried. In this past year, I had to face a lot of my demons and battle myself to find myself again. After a year of searching for a job and waiting and putting my faith in God and not myself, I finally got a positive response back from a job that I applied for with the post office. I didn't know if I would get it or not, but I sent up a quick prayer for The Lord to guide me and I applied. After I applied, I took an assessment test, and after that assessment test, I received an invite to go and take another assessment. I felt confident and again put my trust in The Lord and after the second assessment, I was told to take a drug test, after the drug test a background check was requested and after that, I FINALLY received an invitation for a group interview and when I received the letter I looked at the date it fell on and guess what day that was??!!! February 14th!! I was like what are the odds, right on Valentines day?! So as the day approached I became very nervous, because I have the habit of psyching myself out and all these thoughts ran through my mind, like " what if I'm not good enough?" What if they take one look at me and laugh?!" I forced those negative thoughts out of my head and instead turned to my support group which is made up of friends and family and asked that everyone pray for me.
The night before, I was so stressed, I made myself sick so I went to bed early. Fortunately for that, I was able to rise and shine bright and early the next day ready to take on the interview. My husband cooked me a hearty breakfast because the last group interview had me stuck there all day with no food or breaks so I got sick afterwards. Plus my husband claims it was for Valentines Day. So I got ready, ate breakfast and off we went. I got there an hour early, but decided to go in early to hopefully get it over with, but it being a group interview, I ended up standing outside for an hour until the rest of the group showed up. I didn't mind though, because I ended up making friends and talking while I waited and it seemed to take my mind off the stress of the interview. Right before we finally went inside, I heard crows flying above me in the sky and I looked up. As I looked up I said to The Lord, " Lord, look at these birds, they do not worry about what they will eat or who will feed them, yet you provide for them, please Lord provide this job for me today." As I said it, I took a deep breath and was calm, I walked in there just as me, honest and friendly as only I can be. I filled out my paperwork and a question became a great concern which was " were you ever fired or resigned from a job after being notified that you would be fired?" I of course said no, but the proctor warned us that if we lie, we can and will be terminated! So of course I became freaked out, because as for all of you that have been following me know, my last long term position had a very complicated ending?! So again, I put my trust in The Lord and wrote as honest as I could, the detailed, complicated past I had with my employer.
When it came down to interview one on one, the first question was, so what happened with your last employer? I gave it to God, explained what happened and she just thanked me for explaining it and offered me the job!!! This truly had to be of God, because it is all happening so fast! I am not officially hired though, I still have to pass my medical assessment next week and if I clear that, then they will give me a start date.
I walked out of that building not feeling ecstatic or joyous even though I was, I felt more at peace and calm, even now as I'm typing, I know I should be more excited, but I just feel completely at ease with the whole situation because I know God is in control. After the interview, we couldn't really do anything because we still had our nephew so we went home and hung out until it was time to drop him off at home. Then we went out to eat, but kind of rushed through it because it was well after 9p.m. And the restaurant was closed. After our rushed dinner, we were feeling so blessed about the job, we decided to bless someone else and went and bought candy and a bottle of wine and took it to our dearly beloved sister, then we came home because we have both become so old and my husband was crying he had aches and pains and my stomach hurt because I ate too fast. So once we got home, we both got ready for bed and then that's when things got really interesting.......we both jumped into bed and went to sleep!!!
Yup that was my Valentines Day and I truly feel special, because God was my Valentine and he gave me the most precious gift he could think of to let me know he loves me, which was a much needed and long awaited job! Hope everyone had as special of a day as I had.......Until next time my beloved.....
Faithullness
Today was a very interesting day?!! I'm not going to get into all the details of the events, accept to tell you that regardless, I'm not going to let it get the best of me and no matter what, I am going to show love. Now that I got that out of the way, I wanted to tell you about the thing that spoke to me most about this day, because I believe that it not only showed me how much stronger I have become as an individual, but also showed me how I've grown stronger in my trust and faith in God.
Today was my nieces 1st birthday so my husband and myself went out of town to celebrate it with her. We were gone pretty much the whole day and when we got home, it was well past 7:30 p.m. I had just dropped off my mother and little brother that carpooled with us and was heading into my own home, when I noticed my mom walking down the street looking around? I thought she forgot something so I yelled out ( yes that's how we do it on the hill, we yell instead of running up to the person) " what happened?" At which point my mother informed me that my beloved Homer ran away!! Yes my baby, the one I dote on and threw a birthday Pawty for not more than five months prior was GONE!! So without hesitation, I scurried down to where my husband was and told him of the situation. He told me, " okay let me put this down ( I didn't pay attention to what he was holding) and we will go find him." As any mother knows, whether it human parent or pet parent, the last thing you want to do is wait. So without hesitation or thinking, I grabbed my car keys, ran out of the house and drove around the block with my mom and my brother, Totally ditching my husband (unintentionally of course).
We searched high and low for my 70 lb. baby, but even though he was not where he was suppose to be, I knew in my heart I would find him. So there we were with all of our heads sticking out the window yelling and calling for Homer. We went all around our neighborhood within a 3 mile radius, when we finally decided to check the route that our family usually walks when we go for our daily walks. I was starting to think the worst, when out of nowhere my brother yells out Homer!!! I kept driving, but then he said, " stop I see Homer!!" I slammed on my breaks and checked my rear view mirror and sure enough, there was my precious baby walking behind the car. My brother opened the door and grabbed him into the car and when he got in, he just put his head towards the front seats as if to say, " hey guys what's up, where you been?" I scolded him, even though I wasn't really mad, " Homer, what were you thinking?!! You can't just go running off and making everyone worry, when you get home, you're grounded!!" You sir are going to solitary confinement, yup that's right, your going in the pen!!" Homer of course gave me the look like " yeh right mommy, like you could ever be mad at me?!" And just sat in the back seat with his head out the window.
We got home and he was compliant with going into his kennel without a fight and when I parked my car and made my way back home, I noticed the door was locked and the house was dark? That's when I realized I ditched my husband. I called in to see if he was there and maybe got mad and locked me out, but I knew better, so I went inside and checked to see if he took his phone, but he didn't, so I said to myself, " what a night! First I lose my dog, now my husband!!" I was outside and did the same routine I did in trying to find my dog which was walking around the block calling out my husbands name and making those kissy noises to see if he come back. I went about half a block and decided to head back, when I noticed him coming around the corner from the opposite end. I ran to him, jumped up and rapped my legs around him trying to pretend that I was so sad and worried, but of course my husband knows me all too well and hugged me and said, " oh so you found him." I smiled and told him about our little adventure and how I started calling him too and is that how he came home....he said I was silly and we both went home safe and sound.
Even though my doggy and my hubby were missing, I knew that I would be reunited with them. If this was a year ago today, I most likely would of had a nervous breakdown and started crying and panicking, thinking about everything that would of or could of gone wrong, but instead I put my trust and faith wholly in The Lord and trusted that he will see things through and he did, which is why I am feeling so blessed right now and wanted to share; hope this brought a little bit of sunshine in your day......Until next time
Today was my nieces 1st birthday so my husband and myself went out of town to celebrate it with her. We were gone pretty much the whole day and when we got home, it was well past 7:30 p.m. I had just dropped off my mother and little brother that carpooled with us and was heading into my own home, when I noticed my mom walking down the street looking around? I thought she forgot something so I yelled out ( yes that's how we do it on the hill, we yell instead of running up to the person) " what happened?" At which point my mother informed me that my beloved Homer ran away!! Yes my baby, the one I dote on and threw a birthday Pawty for not more than five months prior was GONE!! So without hesitation, I scurried down to where my husband was and told him of the situation. He told me, " okay let me put this down ( I didn't pay attention to what he was holding) and we will go find him." As any mother knows, whether it human parent or pet parent, the last thing you want to do is wait. So without hesitation or thinking, I grabbed my car keys, ran out of the house and drove around the block with my mom and my brother, Totally ditching my husband (unintentionally of course).
We searched high and low for my 70 lb. baby, but even though he was not where he was suppose to be, I knew in my heart I would find him. So there we were with all of our heads sticking out the window yelling and calling for Homer. We went all around our neighborhood within a 3 mile radius, when we finally decided to check the route that our family usually walks when we go for our daily walks. I was starting to think the worst, when out of nowhere my brother yells out Homer!!! I kept driving, but then he said, " stop I see Homer!!" I slammed on my breaks and checked my rear view mirror and sure enough, there was my precious baby walking behind the car. My brother opened the door and grabbed him into the car and when he got in, he just put his head towards the front seats as if to say, " hey guys what's up, where you been?" I scolded him, even though I wasn't really mad, " Homer, what were you thinking?!! You can't just go running off and making everyone worry, when you get home, you're grounded!!" You sir are going to solitary confinement, yup that's right, your going in the pen!!" Homer of course gave me the look like " yeh right mommy, like you could ever be mad at me?!" And just sat in the back seat with his head out the window.
We got home and he was compliant with going into his kennel without a fight and when I parked my car and made my way back home, I noticed the door was locked and the house was dark? That's when I realized I ditched my husband. I called in to see if he was there and maybe got mad and locked me out, but I knew better, so I went inside and checked to see if he took his phone, but he didn't, so I said to myself, " what a night! First I lose my dog, now my husband!!" I was outside and did the same routine I did in trying to find my dog which was walking around the block calling out my husbands name and making those kissy noises to see if he come back. I went about half a block and decided to head back, when I noticed him coming around the corner from the opposite end. I ran to him, jumped up and rapped my legs around him trying to pretend that I was so sad and worried, but of course my husband knows me all too well and hugged me and said, " oh so you found him." I smiled and told him about our little adventure and how I started calling him too and is that how he came home....he said I was silly and we both went home safe and sound.
Even though my doggy and my hubby were missing, I knew that I would be reunited with them. If this was a year ago today, I most likely would of had a nervous breakdown and started crying and panicking, thinking about everything that would of or could of gone wrong, but instead I put my trust and faith wholly in The Lord and trusted that he will see things through and he did, which is why I am feeling so blessed right now and wanted to share; hope this brought a little bit of sunshine in your day......Until next time
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Wives vs. husbands
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Hallo! Zdrastuy!안녕하세요! And all those other greeting pleasantries; How is everyone doing today? As for me, I'm a little stressed out and don't know if my husband is annoying me because I am so stressed out or if it's because I'm having one of those days where my blood starts boiling when I look at him?
Are you married? If so, tell me, am I the only one that feels this way or are there a band of wives that can join forces with me in agreement? So today is an okay day so far, there really isn't anything going on, except that I have a VERY IMPORTANT group interview that I'm trying to build my self confidence up about, but other than that, there is absolutely nothing going on today. As always we have our nephew, because we are watching him to help out with the bills and such and today before his nap, he decided to be a little stinker and throw our remote control behind the couch because we didn't want to change the channel from the movie that we were in the middle of watching to his music station so he can dance. Of course we got mad at him and I tried sending him to his playroom, because frankly, I didn't want to deal with his terrible 2's today. But he ran right back out after me and threw himself on the ground having a tantrum and when my husband and I ignored his inappropriate behaviour, he decided to go to the table where his juice box was and looked right at us with a mischievous look on his face and right as we yelled "NO!" He turned his juice box upside down and squeezed it onto our carpet. Now in this situation, I of course would have immediately of got him by the hand and put him on time out, but what did my husband do? He grabbed the juice box out of his hand, scolded him by telling him "Don't do that!" and went right back to watching t.v. I really wasn't in the mood to deal with either of them, so I let it go and our nephew sometime later fell asleep.
After literally laying on the couch ALL morning, I decided to get off and move around so I cleaned out my closet and went to visit my cousin to see if she wanted any of my old work clothes, since I figured that I wouldn't be entering into an office job anytime soon. When I got back, I walked in and the house was still filthy from this mornings breakfast, the chair that our nephew threw on the floor was still down, everywhere I looked it was absolutely FILTHY!! Where was my husband? Still on the couch playing video games!!! So I was like, WHATEVER, didn't say anything, started picking up everything, washing the dishes and so forth without a word, but then it happened....
I was almost done washing the dishes and I kept wondering why the water wasn't going down the drain right away? I figured it was because the stopper was there, so when I got down to a reasonable pile, I put my hand down there to remove the stopper, but it wasn't there? It was to the side and there was food in the drain!!!!! Ooooohhhhh I flipped!!! I'm sorry, maybe I have OCD or I'm anal retentive, but with the way the house looked, our nephews earlier behaviour and watching my husband sit on the couch like everything was fine, while I play maid just made me so MAD!!! I started nagging at him, "How many times, did I tell you NOT to throw food in the sink?!! It's not like we have a garbage disposal anymore (our old apartment had one) I'm sorry darling, but we don't have that luxury anymore and when this sink clogs, who do you think is going to be the one to have to pay for it?" EVERY SINGLE TIME!!! HOW HARD IS IT TO PICK UP AFTER YOURSELF!!!" All I can hear, from my husband in the other room was to "shut up" and if I "didn't have anything to say to keep my mouth shut!!" OOOOhhhh that just made my blood level go even higher up a notch. " Oh no, I have A LOT to say, which is why I'm opening my mouth! It's so easy for you to make the mess, but where are you when it's time to clean it up? You freakin dirty the stove and just walk away and leave it, you throw food in the sink and can't throw it away, EVERY ROOM you walk into you make a mess and I'M THE ONE WHO HAS TO CLEAN IT UP!! I feel sorry for when I get a job, because apparently I have to work all day and then come home and clean? My husbands sarcastic response, " yes that's exactly what is going to happen," and for every nagging comment I made afterwards, his response was, "Shut up!"
I swear sometimes, I want to take all of our electronic devices outside into a field and beat them with a baseball bat, but then I come back to reality and realize that if I didn't have my computer, I wouldn't get to talk to you all every night! Siiiggggghhhh, I'm pretty sure I'm not the only wife out there with this problem, I mean don't get me wrong, I have a wonderful husband who cooks me breakfast and stuff, but when it comes to helping clean up the mess, or set up house or anything, all of a sudden he's lost in video games, T.V. and the Internet!! Aarrrrrrgggghhh, don't mind me, I'm just venting, I actually locked myself in our room with the excuse that I'm blogging you all, because I swear if I go out there and take another look around, I'm probably going to flip out again!! It makes me mad to think that I have to nag in order to get anything done or yell and scream to get his attention and then our husbands get mad at us for nagging and screaming at them all the time?! I'm sorry, but when I got married, I wanted to be his wife, not his mother!! But I guess that's marriage huh? When men look for their mates, they are actually looking for someone to take their mother's place (psychology 101). So who's going to win the messy house battle and clean it up? Guess we will have to find out next time, because I just heard him and our nephew put a chair up against the door with my husband telling our nephew, "There, so the crazy monster doesn't escape!" Gotta admit, it made me laugh, so I guess he's forgiven and at that I bid you all A Dieu.......
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
What to write?
Hello my wonderful friends around the world, welcome back to "What the hell happened to Russhelle?" Hope everyone is doing fine and are nice and cozy and ready to read my crazy random blog?
My mind has been taken in a loop, I am so excited, I have a group interview this Thursday so I have been spending the last couple of days trying to prepare for it. But really how does one ever fully prepare for an interview? Now a days they make you jump through hoops and take you on a roller coaster ride before they even consider you for the job (can I hear an amen)? Back in the day, you go in and state you want to work, the employer says okay you want to work, what can you do? You tell them, they so okay, badda bing, badda boom, you got a new job. Today, you have to take an online assessment, then go to a special facility to take another assessment, then go to a group interview, where you have to stand out in the survival of the fittest and once you pass all that..THEN they will see you for the interview on deciding whether you should be hired or not, but not even then do you have the job, because then you get put on probation, where they give you a bunch of other hoops to jump through and test to pass and after a year of jumping through hoops and being tested, then they say "okay, you got the job." Siiiiggggghhhh, then the government wonders why the unemployment rate is so high?
Can you tell I'm a little anxious and freaking out? OK, let me take a breath.......ok, sorry about my ranting, I just really want this job and am getting restless for the group interview. In the meantime, my husband and nephew keep telling me I should be a writer. I really don't know why? I asked them about it and they said that I am very good at captivating and sucking people into what I am writing? SAAAAYYYYYY WHHHHAAAAAATT? I really don't know how my 10 year old godson can see this, if he never read any of my blogs? Although I did write him a story once and had him read it for his school reading credit. Oh gosh what was it about? I think I titled it "The hungry butt wars," or something in that nature and it was about three siblings named Webster, I think Nina and Paco? Oh gosh it was so long ago that I wrote it, but I think the just of the story was basically the Hunger Games storyline, except that they were fighting for the last twinkie. Anyhow, ever since I wrote him that story, he thinks that I should write children's books now. He's such a funny character, my godson, he is only 9 going on 10, but he has the soul of a 30 year old!
I mean don't get me wrong, I appreciate the support and encouragement they are giving me, but come on; really? Me write? I have a hard enough time figuring what to talk about during our therapeutic blog sessions that I have with all of you psychiatrist out there..Yup the secret is out, that is how I view all of you beloved readers, sitting there in your sophisticated Doctor chairs, with a notepad and pen suedo listening, while I rant and rave about my life. All the while, your drawing hangman pictures instead of taking notes. It's okay though, I still enjoy the company nevertheless!
Oh gee, there's the husband in the background yelling for me to get going so that we can run errands around town. Just when I was about to get to all the juicy stuff going on in my life!...Until next time
My mind has been taken in a loop, I am so excited, I have a group interview this Thursday so I have been spending the last couple of days trying to prepare for it. But really how does one ever fully prepare for an interview? Now a days they make you jump through hoops and take you on a roller coaster ride before they even consider you for the job (can I hear an amen)? Back in the day, you go in and state you want to work, the employer says okay you want to work, what can you do? You tell them, they so okay, badda bing, badda boom, you got a new job. Today, you have to take an online assessment, then go to a special facility to take another assessment, then go to a group interview, where you have to stand out in the survival of the fittest and once you pass all that..THEN they will see you for the interview on deciding whether you should be hired or not, but not even then do you have the job, because then you get put on probation, where they give you a bunch of other hoops to jump through and test to pass and after a year of jumping through hoops and being tested, then they say "okay, you got the job." Siiiiggggghhhh, then the government wonders why the unemployment rate is so high?
Can you tell I'm a little anxious and freaking out? OK, let me take a breath.......ok, sorry about my ranting, I just really want this job and am getting restless for the group interview. In the meantime, my husband and nephew keep telling me I should be a writer. I really don't know why? I asked them about it and they said that I am very good at captivating and sucking people into what I am writing? SAAAAYYYYYY WHHHHAAAAAATT? I really don't know how my 10 year old godson can see this, if he never read any of my blogs? Although I did write him a story once and had him read it for his school reading credit. Oh gosh what was it about? I think I titled it "The hungry butt wars," or something in that nature and it was about three siblings named Webster, I think Nina and Paco? Oh gosh it was so long ago that I wrote it, but I think the just of the story was basically the Hunger Games storyline, except that they were fighting for the last twinkie. Anyhow, ever since I wrote him that story, he thinks that I should write children's books now. He's such a funny character, my godson, he is only 9 going on 10, but he has the soul of a 30 year old!
I mean don't get me wrong, I appreciate the support and encouragement they are giving me, but come on; really? Me write? I have a hard enough time figuring what to talk about during our therapeutic blog sessions that I have with all of you psychiatrist out there..Yup the secret is out, that is how I view all of you beloved readers, sitting there in your sophisticated Doctor chairs, with a notepad and pen suedo listening, while I rant and rave about my life. All the while, your drawing hangman pictures instead of taking notes. It's okay though, I still enjoy the company nevertheless!
Oh gee, there's the husband in the background yelling for me to get going so that we can run errands around town. Just when I was about to get to all the juicy stuff going on in my life!...Until next time
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