Valentines Day is suppose to be about love right? The day where your loved ones go out and do this grand gesture to show you how much they care about you so on and so forth. Well my day wasn't really about all that Hallmark Mumbo jumbo, but it was special just the same.
You see for those of you just turning in, I have been jobless for the past year and my faith and trust in The Lord has truly been tested and tried. In this past year, I had to face a lot of my demons and battle myself to find myself again. After a year of searching for a job and waiting and putting my faith in God and not myself, I finally got a positive response back from a job that I applied for with the post office. I didn't know if I would get it or not, but I sent up a quick prayer for The Lord to guide me and I applied. After I applied, I took an assessment test, and after that assessment test, I received an invite to go and take another assessment. I felt confident and again put my trust in The Lord and after the second assessment, I was told to take a drug test, after the drug test a background check was requested and after that, I FINALLY received an invitation for a group interview and when I received the letter I looked at the date it fell on and guess what day that was??!!! February 14th!! I was like what are the odds, right on Valentines day?! So as the day approached I became very nervous, because I have the habit of psyching myself out and all these thoughts ran through my mind, like " what if I'm not good enough?" What if they take one look at me and laugh?!" I forced those negative thoughts out of my head and instead turned to my support group which is made up of friends and family and asked that everyone pray for me.
The night before, I was so stressed, I made myself sick so I went to bed early. Fortunately for that, I was able to rise and shine bright and early the next day ready to take on the interview. My husband cooked me a hearty breakfast because the last group interview had me stuck there all day with no food or breaks so I got sick afterwards. Plus my husband claims it was for Valentines Day. So I got ready, ate breakfast and off we went. I got there an hour early, but decided to go in early to hopefully get it over with, but it being a group interview, I ended up standing outside for an hour until the rest of the group showed up. I didn't mind though, because I ended up making friends and talking while I waited and it seemed to take my mind off the stress of the interview. Right before we finally went inside, I heard crows flying above me in the sky and I looked up. As I looked up I said to The Lord, " Lord, look at these birds, they do not worry about what they will eat or who will feed them, yet you provide for them, please Lord provide this job for me today." As I said it, I took a deep breath and was calm, I walked in there just as me, honest and friendly as only I can be. I filled out my paperwork and a question became a great concern which was " were you ever fired or resigned from a job after being notified that you would be fired?" I of course said no, but the proctor warned us that if we lie, we can and will be terminated! So of course I became freaked out, because as for all of you that have been following me know, my last long term position had a very complicated ending?! So again, I put my trust in The Lord and wrote as honest as I could, the detailed, complicated past I had with my employer.
When it came down to interview one on one, the first question was, so what happened with your last employer? I gave it to God, explained what happened and she just thanked me for explaining it and offered me the job!!! This truly had to be of God, because it is all happening so fast! I am not officially hired though, I still have to pass my medical assessment next week and if I clear that, then they will give me a start date.
I walked out of that building not feeling ecstatic or joyous even though I was, I felt more at peace and calm, even now as I'm typing, I know I should be more excited, but I just feel completely at ease with the whole situation because I know God is in control. After the interview, we couldn't really do anything because we still had our nephew so we went home and hung out until it was time to drop him off at home. Then we went out to eat, but kind of rushed through it because it was well after 9p.m. And the restaurant was closed. After our rushed dinner, we were feeling so blessed about the job, we decided to bless someone else and went and bought candy and a bottle of wine and took it to our dearly beloved sister, then we came home because we have both become so old and my husband was crying he had aches and pains and my stomach hurt because I ate too fast. So once we got home, we both got ready for bed and then that's when things got really interesting.......we both jumped into bed and went to sleep!!!
Yup that was my Valentines Day and I truly feel special, because God was my Valentine and he gave me the most precious gift he could think of to let me know he loves me, which was a much needed and long awaited job! Hope everyone had as special of a day as I had.......Until next time my beloved.....
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