The Stars and I

Ever since I was a little girl and watched An American Tail (1986), I always would sit on my window sill at night looking up at the stars.  No, scratch that! No matter where I was, or what I was doing, whenever the days would start to fade away and the stars would awaken the night sky, I always would look up at them.  Now that I think back, I think it was because I may not have known a lot of things with great certainty, but whenever I looked up at the stars, I would dream! Dream of the days gone by, of days that have yet to be, or never were. No matter what I was going through in my life, I could always count on my dreams to save me.

When I came of age and got married, I didn't even realize it, but I stopped looking up at the stars, somehow stopped dreaming.  I mean I still had dreams.  I would dream of finishing school, starting a family,buying my first home, so on and so forth; but those were dreams of necessity or logic. They were not the dreams that you could get lost in for hours or make you have butterflies in your chest.

I reminisce on this childhood experience, because I was out on the town with my husband tonight and as we were driving home, I caught myself looking up at the stars and I started remembering what those stars meant to me.  How they were a million wishes and prayers sent up to heaven to be answered. How they were the tears of pain and sorrow saved in heaven in remembrance. They were the light in my darkness and no matter where I was or how alone I felt, they were always there shining down on me and giving me hope for a better tomorrow. As I sat in the passenger seat of our car driving along on the highway of our life, I started thinking about those stars and wondering why I never looked up at them anymore? Did my life become so busy that I no longer have time to dream anymore? Were the stars just a childish notion that I grew out of as I have gotten older? Did I come to a point of definitive consciousness, where I said, "What's the point?"

I am not sure when or why I stopped, but I think it was around the time I got married.  Reason being that when I married my husband, my whole life changed.  Suddenly all those wishes and prayers that I would send up to the stars, finally came true, all of my tears and sorrow, turned into complete and utter joy and happiness. My husband became my light and I was always surrounded by him and darkness no longer existed. Because of that, I no longer needed to hope for a better tomorrow because every moment I was living was the best moment I thought I could ever experience. Don't get me wrong, by no means is my husband, or our marriage perfect, but the fact still remains, it is perfect for me! Though the stars are a wonderful after thought, I find that I no longer need to dream, because now my life is better than my dreams could ever be and I thank the Lord every day for such a wonderful gift in life he has blessed me with!...Until next time

Cheap Date Idea

After being married for so long, it kind of gets hard to be innovative when it comes to romance and dating. After while, some couples fall into this rut, where they do the same routine over and over and it just gets so old!  That's why it's important to keep things fun and interesting every once in awhile.

This past weekend my husband and I went on a date.  At first, it was the typical weekend date of eating out and watching a movie, but after the movie, we decided to walk around town and I wanted to keep exploring, while my husband just wanted to do what we always do and just go straight home.  I started to get down because I am a very adventurous type of person that loves spontaneity and exploring new things, so while he started driving home, I just told him, "WHY CAN'T WE JUST PICK A ROAD AND SEE WHERE IT TAKES US?!" He saw that I really wanted to go on an adventure, so my husband being the supportive man that he is, got off the freeway and told me "Left or Right?" I knew if we turned right, we would just head back home eventually, so I told him "LEFT!" which was towards the mountains and an area I didn't think I been to before? We drove it through three cities we never heard of before. One was called "Sparta" I think and one was Montrose? I never heard of those cities but they were near Hollywood and Burbank and were very interesting cities to visit.  We then kept driving up and ended at the foothills of the mountains and when we couldn't drive any higher, we put our car in neutral and coasted all the way back down.  To be honest, not only was it fun and exciting to explore new places we never been to before, but it was also a great time to spend with your spouse or significant other because we spent the whole time just talking and enjoying each others company.  So there you have it, if you guys are looking for something fun and inexpensive to do this weekend and are feeling a little adventurous, why not grab you sweetheart and pick a road and see where it takes you; you never know, it might just lead you to falling in love.....Until Next time!

The night I fell in love

So I was sitting on my couch after a long day, eating a bag if chips like a fatty when I got to the bottom of the bag and licked it clean. Now making a frowning face, I turn to my husband and say, "Marko, I ate all my chips!" Without even looking at me, his eyes still on the t.v. He replies, " awwwww, do you want to go buy some more?" He then looks at me with sympathy, I have $4 and some change we can go out and buy some right now?" 

Siiiighhh, it made my heart grow for him double! I don't know if I told you all this story before; I probably  need to check my previous blogs, but before we were married, my husband and I would have long conversations at night on the phone, like all young couples in love. 

One night, we were talking and I had a real bad cold and I told him, "I'm so hungry!!! You know what I can go for right now?" What?" he asked me in a doting voice. " I could really go for a First Street Burger with some fries and a gallon of orange juice, cough....cough, sniffff!" 

"Where is that at?" He asked curiously, " well it's on First Street of course, but its like 10:00 at night so I guess its too late?" I figured he wouldn't do it, but without even hesitating he said okay, I'll see you in an hour. With that, we hung up, but I didn't think he would really do it, but just as he said, an hour later, he called me to say he was at my door and when I opened it, he had a bag of first street burgers and fries and a gallon of orange juice. I was shocked and amazed and that was the night I fell madly in love for the first time in my life.