Story of my life

Today I got into the car after work so that my husband and I could go to the store and my husband pointed out to me that a bird had apparently pooped on me and without even thinking, I responded with " yeah that sounds about right, just like life has already done!" He started laughing and I just looked at m for a second like, " what are you laughing at?"

That's how I've been feeling lately; I feel like I'm in a valley right now and no matter how hard I try to push up the hill to get to the top, something always seems to come at me, pushing me back down. As you know I recently got a new job...yay! The only thing is that I didn't realize how complex it is?! Scan this, scan that, enter this, sort this, bundle that, load, drive, you have two hours to finish this load, then back again and start over. My head is still spinning from all the new information I have to obtain.

I know I have only officially been there a week, but today all I wanted to do was cry! I went on my route to deliver and I couldn't find parking so I parked almost at the top of the hill and walked to the first house at the bottom and it wasn't until then that I remembered that I forgot what I was suppose to start delivering in my vehicle, so I had to run alllllll the way back to my vehicle, grab my delivery and run back to the starting point. By this point the day started getting warmer and I had two huge boxes to deliver and it was just my luck that it was the last apartment at the end of the block...sigh and let's just say that set the precedence for the rest of the day. Everyone at work is really nice and supportive and tell me that it will get easier and better and I guess I just need to cut myself some slack.

Aside from the excitement of my new job, I am also going through some other personal tngs that I'd rather not talk about out loud, but nevertheless, it is making me feel frustrated and like all my husband and I are being, is pushed around and put in limbo. Siiighhhh, I know that this is just a storm and all I need to do is get though it and wait for it to pass, but how many of these storms do I need to go through, until I start to see some sunshine?

I work six days a week and get to have Sunday off, but at this rate is it worth it? I mean don't get me wrong, I am VERY appreciative of this new job opportunity and for my employer taking the chance on me, but to live to work, instead of working to live? I've been there done that and was " married" to. Y last job, where I worked and let it consume me seven days a week and I did that for five years and what did I get in the end? Nothing except rejection, humiliated and deeply crushed. My new employer doesn't seem like the type that would do that to me and actually are making me feel comfortable, it i still have my 90 day probation and with the day I had, will I even make it that far? Until next time.......