My Confession

Sorry I haven't been on for so long, I seem to be in an existential crisis at the moment. As my birthday approaches and everyone is pointing out my actual age (I'm in my thirties, even though everyone still thinks I'm 19..That's right...I got the forever looking young genes LOL) anyway, I was in my philosophy class today and the topic was on Tolstoy and the meaning of life.

If you do not know who Leo Tolstoy is, I suggest you Google him now, because he was only regarded as one of the greatest authors of all time. I would tell you his biography, but there is too much to tell and such little time that you can just simply click on the links I provided and it will lead you to what you need to know. The reason for my blogging is that in class, the professor asked if anyone knew who Tolstoy was? When he asked, only like 3 people raised their hands.  Now mind you, this is a class of 159 students and only THREE people aside from the Professor knew of the author that not only penned War and Peace, Anna Karenina and countless others, but also was a genius in his own right. The reason the professor asked, was because Tolstoy wrote in his bibliography, a portion called "My Confession," which was at a point in his life where he became deeply depressed and started to ponder what the point of his life was?  To paraphrase his argument, his conclusion was "What was the meaning of life if in the end there is just death, rot and worms?"

As I sat there, pondering his argument, I started to ponder my own life.  WHAT WAS THE POINT? I have entertained this question more than I care to share at this point, but I too have been conflicted with the same disposition as Tolstoy in trying to figure out what the purpose was for everything? I mean, why did I even start this blog to begin with? I started it because I wanted to share my story and let people that were going through the same thing know that there is hope and happiness at the end of the tunnel....but then what? Will anyone remember me 5 generations from now after I am long dead and gone, or will they forget me as if I never existed like Tolstoy? Why am I working, fighting and torturing myself to finish school? So I can work...and then what? So I can be successful in life and have all the things that I so desired and to provide a legacy to my future bloodline...and then what?

No matter what we do, or how hard we try.....We all die in the end! Just some get there sooner than others. It made me think of my life and how I've stressed out and gotten sick health wise for so long and started to think....was it all worth it? IS it still worth it?  I feel like some points in my life have been a total waste of time and those are moments of my life that I will never get back! But still...What is the point, if all it leads to is death?

But then I started meditating on the Lord and you know what..everything DOES have a point and my life is meaningful! Death does not have victory, but CHRIST who conquered death, so that we can have ETERNAL LIFE (1 John 5:13; 1 John 5:5; Galatians 2:20). Whenever we start to doubt the Lord, the bible says: But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind (James 1:6)." It also says, trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding (Proverbs 3:5). It is the purpose of my life to serve the Lord my God and it is He that gives me meaning and reasons to live. On that note, don't ever think that your life is meaningless or hopeless, yes one day you will be dead and basically worm food, but until then, your life means something and it is worth a whole lot more than you even realize.

Mar Mars Toys Christmas Commercial

Hello all my beloveds around the world; I've missed you!! Sorry I haven't been blogging with you all lately, but I have been so busy lately whoring out my......I mean outsourcing my skills and talents to other projects and business endeavors LOL! Anywho, I thought I would come on here for a quick second to just catch up for a second. Let's see, my career is about to take off, I just don't know in which direction, so I am very excited to see which path I end up on? I've been pretty sick most of December which is why I haven't been on here also, but I feel better today so I must really think you guys are special to be spending it with you <3 <3

I have also been working feverishly on creating hair bows and bowties which can be found at www.marmarstoys.com...they are actually pretty awesome, so if you want to check them out, they can be found there by clicking on the link and looking in the Accessories section.

What I am most proud of is the commercial that I wrote, directed, produced, edited, etc. for Mar Mars Toys.  Considering that I had no scripts and made it up as I went along and that one of the talents was a 4 year old pre-madonna, I am pretty impressed with what we were able to put together LOL!  But then again, I am pretty biased so check it out for yourself and let me know what you think? Also, don't forget to subscribe and follow to see what other madness I might create for them LOL...Until next time....

Cheap Date Idea

After being married for so long, it kind of gets hard to be innovative when it comes to romance and dating. After while, some couples fall into this rut, where they do the same routine over and over and it just gets so old!  That's why it's important to keep things fun and interesting every once in awhile.

This past weekend my husband and I went on a date.  At first, it was the typical weekend date of eating out and watching a movie, but after the movie, we decided to walk around town and I wanted to keep exploring, while my husband just wanted to do what we always do and just go straight home.  I started to get down because I am a very adventurous type of person that loves spontaneity and exploring new things, so while he started driving home, I just told him, "WHY CAN'T WE JUST PICK A ROAD AND SEE WHERE IT TAKES US?!" He saw that I really wanted to go on an adventure, so my husband being the supportive man that he is, got off the freeway and told me "Left or Right?" I knew if we turned right, we would just head back home eventually, so I told him "LEFT!" which was towards the mountains and an area I didn't think I been to before? We drove it through three cities we never heard of before. One was called "Sparta" I think and one was Montrose? I never heard of those cities but they were near Hollywood and Burbank and were very interesting cities to visit.  We then kept driving up and ended at the foothills of the mountains and when we couldn't drive any higher, we put our car in neutral and coasted all the way back down.  To be honest, not only was it fun and exciting to explore new places we never been to before, but it was also a great time to spend with your spouse or significant other because we spent the whole time just talking and enjoying each others company.  So there you have it, if you guys are looking for something fun and inexpensive to do this weekend and are feeling a little adventurous, why not grab you sweetheart and pick a road and see where it takes you; you never know, it might just lead you to falling in love.....Until Next time!

Not so good News for Disneyland lovers

If you live in Southern California, one of the MUST haves if you are a fun loving family or individual is having a Disney Pass!  I tried to resist for so long and I was so proud of myself for not being one of those people that live at theme parks. But after years of persistence, my sister finally wore me down and I bought the Premium pass that was around $800 or so, but it came with free parking and some extra perks so I felt like I got my monies worth.  I was living the Disney life with my Disney Buddy and family, but then they HAD to ruin it!  I guess it makes sense with the new expansion of Star Wars Land and all the new additions they are bringing to the park, but still in todays society where it's either pay to survive or go to Disneyland, sorry Disney but I'd rather be happy at home with a roof over my head and food in my belly!

Apparently, Disney got rid of my beloved Premium Pass and made way for two new options which are the Disney Signature Passport and the Disney Signature Plus Passport. The Disney Signature Passport is basically the same as the Deluxe Pass, but its $250 more, costing $849 and comes with PhotoPass downloads, parking and a higher discount rate.  The Disney Signature Plus Passport is basically the same exact deal as the Disney Signature Pass, with the exception of no blackout dates and cost a whopping $1,049.  Sadly, being a college student that's trying to figure out life right now, I've decided to spend my money more wisely and will not be renewing or getting a pass anytime soon. But if you enjoy ridiculously high pricing on food, merchandise and entrance fees and pushing through thousands of hot sweaty people to get to long lines that take about 45 minutes to an hour to ride, by all means, check out their page at https://disneyland.disney.go.com/passes ..I on the other hand will be at my most happiest place on earth, which is here with you all...Until next time!

College Life Part 2

Is it just me or does the year always seem to be in fast forward towards the end? NO!! I'm not ready!! Despite that, I am not sure if I'm feeling excited or anxious about this being my last year of college? Either way...FINALLY!!! I feel like I'm in a daze because the classes seem to be way to easy..or is it because I'm so used to the workload and assignments by now that it doesn't even phase me? I don't know, but I just finished my topic outline and presentation powerpoint and now I'm sitting here like...That's it?  I'm done, I thought that was going to be harder?! Hmmmmm...maybe it will hit me when I start working on my final paper, I don't know, but all I have to say is on to the next assignment!! I have a genogram and three reflection papers I have to write and at this rate, I think I will be done by the end of this evening..WHHHHAAATTTTT?!!!! I must be on something, because I'm on a roll....Until next time :P

Who is Mar Mars Toys?

Hello my beloveds! I am so excited that I rushed right on here to talk to you guys!! In a rare unicorn moment, my older brother agreed to help me with a special project that I needed his created genius for. Together, we were able to concoct the most epic commercial for Mar Mars Toys that has ever been known to man!...I might be exaggerating a bit, but seriously, I think we did a pretty awesome job on it!....And now....for your eyes only....behold...an exclusive look at Mar Mars Toys first official commercial....also, feel free to check us out at www.marmarstoys.com for special deals!..Until Next Time....

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Attack on Titans!!

So Mar Mars Toys has been searching high and low for Attack on Titans POP figures for all you fans out there and we are excited to announce that we have finally heard your cries and answered them...  Here, before you today, behold in all their glory....two of our newest custom creations that you can't find anywhere else, even if you tried!

Check out our website at www.marmarstoys.com for even more awesome fandoms and figures! See you there!!